I
know, again it’s been a great while. I
am feeling deflated today, and maybe that is why I’m doing an entry. A blog I read, a fashion blog, the owner had
to go through IVF, it seems like on her first attempt pregnancy was successful. I obviously don’t know this person, but why
can’t that be me. Where is my
success. Just makes me feel so
defeated.
To go
back three months, our consult at RSC went well. Dr. Pang is an interesting guy, very
smart. Reassuring. Dealing with a Reproductive Science Center
makes me feel better about trying this again.
He is not ready to jump to using a surrogate yet, which does not
surprise me. He wants to do PGD on our
embryos. Basically that is pre-genetic
testing on all embryos to make sure they are as good as BS claimed them to be. This decreases the chance of miscarriage and
other health problems that our future child could be born with. This testing comes at a significant
cost. $2,500-3,000 an embryo. Last time I had 9 embryos. I do think though BS overstimulated me that
is why I had such a high embryo count.
But wow. That’s costly. On top of the cost of retrieval and medication. We have already spent over a grand on chromosome
testing on Nick and I. Sadly, that cost
is not that bad because insurance covered most of those cost.
It was
also recommended that I have another hysteroscopy done and an endometrial biopsy. Both were for Dr. Pang to get a better look
at what is actually going on in there. I
have not heard anything back yet, but they are big on no news is good
news. So I’m hoping that is the
case. I was also prescribe Levothyroxine
for hypothyroidism and Vitamin D for 8 weeks and then was directed to start
taking a daily Vitamin, both of these levels being low can have an effect on
getting pregnant. I guess it doesn’t hurt,
right?
I am
not off the pill and in July will go in for day three labs to have my levels
check. Something tells me my
progesterone levels will be low.
We are
considering, and have been for about a month to do a crowd funding
website. I’m scared. But I guess you never know who really wants to
help you if you don’t ask. Putting our
story out there makes me nervous as some people can be judgmental and see it as
a way to scam money from other people. I
wish it didn't have to come to this, but in all honesty how can we afford to
have a child without asking for help? Maybe putting this struggle out there will
make it easier and make people more aware.
Fingers cross something positive comes from this crazy life.
I’ll
be back………….
