Heartbroken.

So it’s been crazy here.  Living so close to Sandy Hook brings so many things in to perspective about life and childhood.  I have always feared bringing children in to this world, and having to question that makes me sad.  What happens at Sandy Hook rips my heart apart, those defenseless children with fear running through them while their friends and classmates were being picked off one by one. What terror what tragedy, what hate.  What is happening to our nation?  Our innocence is ruined by the media and social networking, sending your child to school will never ever be the same.  It makes this decision to bring a child in to this hateful world so much harder.  Can a parent provide enough love, support, knowledge, sympathy to keep their child from the depths of evil?  I would worry if I’m giving my child enough love to make sure this could never happen to me, that my child could never do this to another human being.  When will this country we live in be carefree and safe again?  When will I stop to worry about things.  I’m a runner, I run in desolate areas and my thoughts are turned to being attacked someone coming after me.  I should never feel this way, so insecure.  I’m just sick with sadness for those families.