Anxious

Always so anxious.  Friday is our consult.  I have been lucky enough to email a couple girls that have been through IVF or are going through it or will be going through it.  Once is a friend of the hubby, his wife.  The other a co-worker of my sister, his wife.  It was nice and is nice to have someone to talk to, outside the family circle.  I am not the best at making friends.  I am the type of person that is happy with the ones I have and don't want anymore.  I reached out to the Hubby's friend's wife "B" and will try to get together with her for coffee or something.  She and her husband are six-seven years older than N and I.  They have a lot more going on then N and I do, going far beyond a messed up uterus.  They seem to have some chromosome issues.  It's such a scary thing to have do IVF and then to have to deal with find the perfect embryo to implant.  I pray for them.  I pray for us.  I'm tired.  I need the spring and the happy warm weather.  Can't wait to feel that on my face.