Sperm and Faith.

So happy it’s Friday.  It is always difficult to work a full week after having days off for holidays.  N did his SA on Friday of last week.  He was going to call today to see if the results were ready.  I had a dream last night that they were fine, fingers cross that that is the case.  He was able to do it at home, but was still nervous and had a hard time with it, which I get.  So we will find out soon enough.  We also scheduled our appointment with our doctor.  There is this checklist that needs to be completed prior to actually starting.  This includes the overview class, a consult with your physician, a protocol class, and then a bunch of lab work, which we already had.  So we are ahead of the curve and meet with our Dr. on February 1^st.  I wish it was sooner, but I’ll take it. 

I have had such anxiety for a while now.  I was so nervous on our way to the hospital for our overview class I thought I was going to puke and it was just a class!  I need to relax more, breathe more, trust that God has this all under control, because I can’t handle it all on my own. 

I wonder how many women that go through this start questioning their belief in God.  I went to church as a child, but that was it.  I was raise Protestant.  I never was interested in a higher faith, I was content with what I believed in, but now with all this question if I need more.  And I don’t really have anyone I can go to, my mom rarely goes to church anymore.  My sister is Greek Orthodox but isn’t practicing.  I just don’t know, I have so much on my mind, all these thoughts.  It frustrates me.

I found this list online that I put up here at work.  I like it, kinda no nonsense.  Here it is:

Things To Remember:

1.       Eat regularly and well.

2.       Get enough sleep.   (check! J )

3.       Sometimes being a bitch is necessary.

4.       Stop talking and listen.

5.       Don’t take anyone shit’s.

6.       Things will get better.

7.       If someone can’t make the effort to be in your life, they don’t deserve to be there.

8.       It only ends once.  Everything else is just progress.

9.       A good cup of tea can solve just about anything.

10.    Stick to your guns.

11.    Impromptu solo dance parties are good for your health.

12.    Spend time with the people who matter most.

I like it, it makes sense to me. 

Have I mentioned I’m so glad it’s Friday.  Need to get my hair done soon, pulled out four grey hairs.  Yikes.  Have a great weekend.  I’ll keep you posted on N’s results.