Working On My Positivity.

I have never had much positivity in general.  I tend to be ok with the not so good in things, and even find ways to make that situation a joke.  I am very uncomfortable in any serious situation and turn to making fun of something to make it more bearable to endure.

I realize this is not the best tactic for things.  I need to learn and teach myself to be more positive.  To not have this Debbie Downer attitude all the time.  I feel like sometimes I have kinda of had an unfair life, which maybe only makes sense to me and is only caused by me.  I just seemed to have struggled more and added more stress to my life and now here I am, kinda sad, kinda lonely, and kinda afraid of the future. 

I constantly worry.  I need to stop.  I need to stop being so hard on myself.  I have to stop allowing negative situations get to me, and try not to get involved.  Which is hard.  My work lately seems to be where negative energy goes to die.  It's so bad here, poor management, poor team work makes it hard to leave the negativity behind.  But I have to learn to be quiet.  Let things go and realize I have been here for ten years, it ain't gonna change.  It's work and it happens everywhere and I should be happy I have a job and a great boss, and a somewhat good team to be on.

So here it is, after this adventure of being let down I need to bring myself back up and rebuild.  That means staying away from what makes me sad and upset and only surround myself with postivity. 

So here goes nothing. 

Be Happy.