2WW

So, we are officially in the two week wait.  I’m terrified.  Can’t we just skip this part?  I started to feel my best yesterday.  I am not sure it was because the weight of all this was off my shoulders and the hard part was done, or if I figured out that my meds were having an ill effect on me.  I am still having difficulty breathing and think I have some sort of infection and I don’t really know what to do about it.  It’s not a sore throat but just a cough because I can’t seem to get enough oxygen.   So that has been fun to deal with.  You know what else has also been a blast.  Constipation.  It’s been insane.  Since my retrieval I haven’t gone.  Well I have, but it’s been hard…no pun intended.  I should probably call the nurses and tell them, but I don’t really want to talk about constipation with my boss right on the other side of the cubicle wall.  So I have been backed up and since then I have been having spouts of nausea that I couldn’t figure out why, I thought it was all the meds I was on, progesterone, estrogen patches, and prenatal vitamins.  Well it looks like it is most likely the prenatal mixing with everything else.  I will start taking that at night.  They also prescribed Caberlogine for OHSS, but after transfer I haven’t taken it, makes me nervous.

So I got the phone call on Saturday a.m. to tell me that I would be going in on Monday and that we had 12 high quality embryos and 3 high quality ones, which would probably be the ones we used on Monday.  I had taken Monday off from work, but I did feel fine after the procedure, I did take the valium, but definitely didn’t feel like I needed it.  They tell you to drink 6-8oz of water, which I did plus a little more when we got there because I felt like my bladder wasn’t full, just ehh.  So N was able to change in to scrubs and come in to the OR for the procedure and it was kind of an amazing moment.  You get to watch it all go down on the u/s monitor and to see the lil embryo shoot out and stick in my uterus was amazing.  We both got a little teary eyed and were happy and relieved this part was over.  It would be great if we got reassurance that this will stick and that I will get pregnant.  But to even know that there is a 50/50 chance is more than what I had before.  You know, so this is a huge move in the right direction of making me happy about this.  I will find out tomorrow what we will have frozen in case we have to use them again.  I hope we got a few more to freeze. 

I wish this experience was more widely known, because it was one of the most insane adventures of my life, and it’s not even over with yet.  The sadness and happiness that can come out of this just can move you beyond belief. 

We go back I think on 3/27 for blood work.  I hope good things from only here out, and if not that is ok too and we move on.