Well, round one is done. I was kinda figuring since the hpt was negative, and that even though I was reassured by everyone that it was "too early" and "maybe the hcg wasn't in your blood stream yet" that I would not be one of those girls.
I was prepared, but when you hear the voice of the understanding nurses you crumble because it's like talking to your mom and hearing bad news from anyone with a sympathetic tone is hard to handle. So, that is that.
She had asked if I had gotten my period yet and I had told her no. At that point she continued to tell me that I can stop the patches and progesterone and that I can discuss with N as to what steps we want to take next. I wasn't sure. But I didnt' want to give up. I also didn't want the whole world knowing that we were going to jump in to another round. So we agreed that we would start another round, FET, and keep it on the super DL, the only two people that know are my sister and then a friend going through the same situation. I can be honest with both of them and they listen and understand. Not saying my other friends don't but I need that support of at least someone knowing. And this way, if it does happen we can wait the 12 weeks until we tell our family. It's just a healthier way to deal with it.
The nurse told me there was no reason they could detect why it didn't work and that sometimes it's just how the ball bounces (my phrase, not hers). Which I get. She also said that by doing a FET they can control my estrogen and progesterone levels better, where I was so overstimulated that could have effected the egg implanting. N and I also agreed this round we would do two. Hell we have nine why just have them sit there?
I also found out through a brief email that N's SIL just suffered a miscarriage at the beginning of February, maybe, about five weeks ago. I was shocked. She has PCOS and had a difficult time getting pregnant the first time, and then had a rough pregnancy, at least it seemed like it. So, I'm sadden by their loss, and hope they are at peace with it.
I'm glad we are keeping this round quiet. I had to text maybe 7ppl yesterday relaying the news, and my parents. My dad says I'll be over after work tomorrow, he is so sweet, but its ok. I'm ok, and when I see him I'll cry like a baby because that is how parents make you feel, you love that they care so much it just fills you with so much emotion, at least it does for me!
So, I take two days of progesterone, today and tomorrow, orally at night. The nurse said they will count Monday the 1st as the first day of my cycle. I then apply one patch (vivelle dot) and keep that on until Wednesday, when I replace it again, and then on Friday I put two on, and then prior to transfer I will be wearing four at ones, insane, right? They leave a nice little linty sticky patch on my stomach that does not come off easily, kinda annoying. I then head in for blood work and ultrasound on the 16th with a transfer date of the 22nd.
Cross your fingers for us...I hope I don't have a hostile uterus.
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