Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Defeated.

Feeling defeated today.  I have a cold too and that makes me feel even more deflated then I already am.  I saw my dad yesterday after work, he wanted to check up on me.  Cried, again.  I just want this to be done and over with.  I’m scared.  I’m panicked.  I’m a mess.

Have I mentioned how much I hate Facebook.  The only reason I’m one it is so I can keep in touch with family, but everything else about is so obnoxious and narcissistic, like a giant brag book for the world to see.  I hate it.  I log on this a.m. to see a pic of my sister’s BIL and wife, it’s their wedding anniversary.  And they are pregnant, again.  It rips my heart.  I can’t handle this.  I can’t handle never knowing if I’ll ever have kids. 

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