Am I crazy? I have been reading blogs about endometriosis and infertility and I feel not in the same boat as some of these other women. So here is the gist I crampy and bloated when I ovulate and it sucks and I never felt it before because it was masked by the pill, but it’s bearable pain and when I get home from work I put on my comfy pants and lay on the couch and I’m fine, it’s tolerable for me. Is it a pain in the butt, yes of course, but I have always felt like I can handle this. When my period comes I feel different each month, sometimes even though it lasts a week, I’m ok, it doesn’t wipe me out at all. Back in August though, it was bad, I was sick from work, I was exhausted, nauseous, and sad. But I thought again, this is normal. I thought this was all normal, and I have no idea.
I remember, and this still happens, when I was in my 20’s of not being able to digest things well, I’d get massive diarrhea, throwing up, and stomach rumbles after eating something and this range from steak to grilled cheese. Was this part of it? I have no idea. Do I have a high tolerance for pain? These poor poor women who seem to be in excruciating pain and can’t even make it through the day, where do I fit in with this?
My mind is boggled, I’m confused. It’s f-ed up. Because I have no answers as to where this came from.
Today is my favorite days. It’s family dinner night. I canceled my dentist cleaning so I could be there, because it’s what I look forward to. I have an obsessiveness with my nieces and nephew. They are a piece of my family that I will love no matter way.I love them more than words. It makes me happy to be around all of them. I’m lucky I am so close with my siblings to be around them so much.
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